Thursday, February 9, 2012

Ryder James Despain

I'll start with the good pictures of him breathing on his own :)

OK you all probably know Ryder decided to come early like his brother. The birth story is a good one and I have had many requests to get it on here but just haven't had the time so here it is....
On Wednesday Feb. 1st Phil headed off to work in Salt Lake around 9PM as he does every Wednesday night. All that day I had felt horrible and decided to just take a shower and go to bed. As I showered I felt a little better and decided to quickly shave my legs. As I shaved I felt a little splash and thought holy crap I just peed! I hurry and finished and got out but as I dried off I noticed there was a steady stream of fluid. I stuck my towel between my legs and brushed through my hair. I looked at the towel and saw that it was pretty wet. I knew then that it was my water leaking and pretty badly. So I called the Dr. I pretty much knew what was going to happen from there because the same think had happened with Tristan except my water broke at 32 wks 5 days with him and he was delivered at 33wks. I was only 31wks 3days. So the Dr. confirmed that I needed to head to IMC hospital right away. So I called Phil and we decided since he was already in Salt Lake he would meet me there with his mom and she would take the kids to her house. So I got the kids up. I threw clothes in bags and grabbed what I could. I picked up Tristan to put him in the car after loading it and felt a masive gush between my legs. It filled my boots and everything and I knew that it was water had just broke. I got in the car and of course found it on empty. The 45 min to an hour drive to the hospital would make it impossible to keep it that way so I headed to the gas station. I filled my tank and shivered as the wind blew on my sopping wet legs. I got so many strange looks. I think it was pretty obvious what had happened but these people seemed to think I was crazy. Anyway To make this long story shorter it was confirmed that yes my water had grossly ruptured meaning there was hardly any left just a pocket here or there. through a visual examination it was determined I was probably dialated to a 1. I was put on bedrest in the hospital in hopes that I could make it to 34 weeks. I was pumped full of antibiotics and steroids to fight off an impending infection and to help the babys lungs develop. Bedrest was as it was with Tristan pretty much just waiting to see what happened. Then on Sunday the 5th at 32 wks exactly I woke up about 4AM with a few contractions. They got pretty bad and close together and I was moved down to Labor and delivery. They were every 2 1/2 min. apart and so intense I had to ask for some pain med. in my IV. They refused to check me because it introduced more bacteria into the uterus and they didn't want to risk it. After some IV fluids and pain meds my contractions tapered off. They got down to only 3 an hour and then completely stopped. It was determined it was false labor and I was sent back upstairs to recovery around 3 or 4. But something still wasnt right. I was having contractions but they were random. Completely random. They monitered me and found some 40 min. apart and others 7 min. But the ones I had were so painful. It got to the point where the pain in my back was unbearable. They told me I was constipated and so I took a hot shower. By the time I got out I could barely stand. Phil helped me throw a shirt and some panties on and I threw myself into bed not even able to brush my hair. I bit my towel and called the nurse again. I begged her to do something about this horrible back pain I was having. She felt my uterus and said it wasnt contracting or hard and that it had to just be constipation and got me a laxative and the monitors. They fiddled with them trying to get them to work but they wouldnt. by this time there were 3 nurses in with me and I was begging for any type of pain relief. I cried and screamed and told them to make it stop. I begged and pleaded with Phil to please make it go away. I was one of those women on A Baby Story that I always made fun of because they couldnt handle the pain. But I really couldn't. The Dr. arrived shortly after they brought the monitors in. She said not to worry about monitoring and that she wanted to check me. She checked and said "Shes complete. Were going to take you down to have a baby now." I looked at her and whined "You mean I don't get my epideral?" She laughed and told me she would have him meet us in the OR as long as I promised to take deep breaths and not push. I was wheeled out on my bed and she updated people and let them know we were coming and to have NICU ready. She grabbed a pair of gloves as we walked into the elevator. We got off and I felt the most extreme monsterous contraction of them all. I gasped in pain and I think she knew I couldnt stop it. She threw my blankets back and jumped on the end of the bed. "Crowning!" she yelled follwed by "We're delivered!" The rest was all caos. I remember feeling her holding him between my legs. Hearing his little cry and her telling Phil that he looked really good. I remember her riding on the bed holding him there between my legs as they pushed me the rest of the way to the OR. I remeber her asking several times for a clamp so she could cut the cord and thinking freak people get the woman a clamp already! I remember them sliding the window open to the NICU and calling to them that they were delivered. Ill spare you the rest but let me just say that I am all about being numb for both the labor,birth and afterbirth! I guess I am just not the type that can take it quietly lol. I was really embarrassed after he was born thinking about how I had acted but I also remember the pain and think well how else could I have acted. lol. Anyway so there is the story. Ryder James Despain was born in the hallway of the hospital at 8:11PM. He weighed 3lbs 15oz and was 16inches long. He is doing amazingly well and we love him so much. He is such a fighter and everyone is so amazed at how well he is doing for 32 weeks. He has passed milestones this week that his brother didnt do till he was a week old. Sometimes with all the crazyness I forget that I had a baby 4 days ago. Im tried and stressed and completely overwhelmed but I am so happy to have him here and healthy. I am so greatful for my family and all of their help with EVERYTHING. I think of how I feel right now and know I couldnt do it without them.
His first night

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Joslynns 5!

Joslynn turned 5 today. Its hard for me to believe but at the same time she is SO tall she looks way older than even 5. I still can't get over how fast they grow up! Phil took the day off (besides a meeting he had to go to at 2) and we started out with breakfast at McDonalds. Then we went to Nickle Cade which was a BLAST! Even Mommy Daddy and Tristan had fun!

We are so lucky to have this spunky girl in our lives!

Then Phil had a work meeting so we stopped and got Sonic Blasts for lunch and came home to put Tristan down for a nap while phil went to his meeting. After that we met all of our family at Applebees (Upon Joslynns request! Thanks all for coming on such short notice she loved every second!)

Grandma and Grandpa Despain

Papa Jim Mammah Dawn and Aunt Jenny

Hannah Uncle Shawn and Alex

Aunt Heidi and the Birthday Girl herself!



Joshy Uncle Mikey Jackson and Aunt Manda

Then it was back to Grandmas for presents cake and ice cream!

Special thanks to my dad whos birthday is the day after Joslynns for sharing her party and letting her have her Strawberry Shortcake cake! What a good grandpa!



Christmas this year was a blast. A big CRAZY blast. We had the girls this year which was exciting because Tristan actually knew what was going on this year. We ALL got spoiled rotten!

The girls



Tristan actually opened a few of his presents....But then.....

He decided it was funner to sit on them than actually open them. Silly boy!

The girls in their new Christmasy church outfits.

Church was at 9 for us so we decided in order to not feel rushed we would wake the kids up at 6. Boy was it a LONG day!

Tristan crashed the second we got home from church. LOVE that cute butt!

Hope everyone had a GREAT Christmas! Love you all!

Monday, December 5, 2011


I LOVE traditions. Since the girls don't have a lot of stability around the holidays with switching off between me and their Dad I wanted to start some fun traditions that they could count on every year. So we started the tradition of letting the kids pick a new ornament every year to put on the tree. I love it because it helps me remember what they were into the years before. Then when they get married they can take them with to put on their tree. We also started the tradition of letting them pick the wrapping paper that their gifts are wrapped in each year. They really seem to enjoy picking it out every year and it makes it fun on Christmas morning. They know exactly whose presents are whose.

Abby picked a Glee ornament and Justin Bieber wrapping paper. (apparently she thinks he's cute)
Joslynn picked a Dora ornament and Tinker Bell wrapping paper. (She has loved Tinker Bell since she was little)
Tristan picked a thomas (Choo choo) ornament and Buzz wrapping paper (His 2 obsessions this year)

Decorating the tree

The kids LOVED decorating the tree this year. Tristan enjoyed it the most though. He loved putting the ornaments on and then running over to me to get another one. Then he would take them off and move it. We had so much fun. I love how the kids are getting old enough to enjoy fun traditions.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

North Pole breakfast

Most of you have probably heard of Elf on the shelf. For those of you who havent it is an elf that sits on the shelf and every night goes to tell santa if the kids were good that day. Well years ago when Abby was a sunbeam her primary president gave us a little elf to sit on the shelf. I don't know how the new elf on the shelf works but with our elf every night she goes and tells santa if they were good and then the next morning she is in a different place. The kids love waking up and finding where she is watching them from that day. On Pinterest I found a lady who had made a north pole breakfast to introduce the elf on the shelf to her kids. Even though our kids know our elf and have for years I decided it would be fun to do kind of the same thing. I had planned it for after Thanksgiving but the girls have been...well lets just say it flat out naughty lately so we decided elf would come early this year. I went to the dollar store and got a cute table cloth, some decorations and some cute hot chocolate mugs along with some warm socks (from Roudolph to keep their toes warm while eating their north pole breakfast :)) Anyway Elf brought snow covered dounuts (Powdered) and hot chocolate to go in their mugs. Santa also wrote them a little note reminding them to be good. They had a ton of fun with it but I think Abby may be getting too old. :( I can't pull things over on her as well anymore. She notices everything like the way Santas marker was running out the same way ours does...Anyway we had fun and they have been little angels ever since.

Thursday, November 10, 2011


Halloween was so much fun this year! Trick or treating was by far my favorite part. Before we left we made sure to remind the girls to say thank you. Abby was shy and would politely and quietly say thank you at each house. Joslynn was well...Joslynn. She is such a sweety and would say thank you as loudly as she could followed by HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! If the person giving out candy did not acknowledge that she had said it she would keep repeating it loudly until they did. Tristan was SO fun this year! He caught on quite quickly and actually learned to say Trick or treat while we were out. He would go up and grab a handful of candy. We would say no no just take one and they would say oh he can have as much as he wants! He would stand there waving bye bye and blowing kisses until we dragged him away. If we were taking too long talking to neighbors inbetween houses he would grab our hand and pull us along. Such cute kids!!!

Joslynn was Tinkerbell

Abby was a scary vampire

Tristan was a bum

Such a cute bum too!

Our cute kids!

Cutest tinkerbell around!

Such a cute scary vampire

Hope everyone had a great Hallowen! We are so excited for Thanksgiving and then CHRISTMAS!!! HOORAY!!!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

It's a.....


And he was NOT shy! :)

Monday, September 26, 2011

The "official" announcement!

So here it is the "official" announcement!

I'm pregnant!!!! We are due on April 1st :)

This Little one has given us a run for our money but is a true fighter! After 10 weeks of on and off bleeding we were in the clear. This one stuck! We were SO EXCITED! after everything we have been through we are so blessed to still have this little one holding on! But Saturday at 13 weeks I started bleeding pretty heavily. We went to the ER and they found that the placenta had started to detach from the uterin wall. It can heal with strict bedrest and no lifting but it can also continue to pull away. If it were to become completely detached it is life threatening to not only the baby but to me as well. I will have an ultra sound weekly to make sure it is healing and not getting worse, until it heals I am on bedrest. We appreciate all the prayers we can get and are so thankful for our friends and family and all of their support!

Thursday, September 1, 2011

My 1st grader

Abby started 1st grade on the 22nd. I thought she would love it like she did Kindergarten but NOPE!!! NOT AT ALL! She HATES it! We had to start a happy chart because I couldn't handle the kicking and screaming every morning. I couldnt handle leaving her crying at school or the nights crying when she realised she has to go to school when she wakes up. I am hoping it gets better. She really did LOVE Kindergarten. :(