Sunday, August 31, 2008

Finally 21!


I'm finally an adult! A real one! I had a great birthday this weekend. It was so much fun!

Friday, August 29, 2008

Being us


I figured since my sis Jen could post naked pictures on her blog so could I. (love ya jen!) This is me and Phil after a night swim. It was freezing so we decided to go hot tubbing. This is our hot tub. We also played with the girls rubber duckies that his mom had got them. They squirt water out of their mouths and everything! It was awesome. This is just how we are. We are both crazy and that is what makes it so fun. Oh ps don't worry Heidi is taking the picture witch means she was there. The door was open the whole time. NO FOUL PLAY WENT ON I PROMISE! LOL!

My little DIVA!


Abby is my little diva. She is so up with the times. She tells me when my clothes are not "hip" (in her words) and songs come on the radio that I have never heard before and suddenly she knows all the words and is singing and dancing along. And you get the camera out and she is all for modeling and striking a pose. Like in this picture. She had just woke up and was still groggy but once I got the camera out she knew exactly what to do! She is growing up so fast!

My little clown!



Joslynn is like my own little clown. Whenever I'm having a bad day she always seems like she can sense it and does something funny to make me laugh. Like today I was having some issues with some people voicing opinions....anyway she put on Heidis sunglasses and started almost modeling them. It was so cute! I was laughing so hard. When she saw I was laughing instead of crying she just smiled at me like she had accomplished what she wanted to. She is so sweet.

Friday, August 22, 2008





We went to a carnival today. It was so much fun. The girls loved it. My sister Jenny and her husband Shawn's stake put one on every year. There is free food and tonz of games and stuff. This year was the first that Joslynn was old enough to enjoy it. They are both getting so big it is so much fun!

Sunday, August 17, 2008

On a happier note....



The girls just love there cousin Alex. Joslynn loves to kiss and hug him and Abby is just like a big sister to him. They are always asking their Aunt Jenny if they can hold baby Alex.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

My girls

Just one more thing. I am not giving up time with my girls. I have them just as much time as Randon does. That has not changed. I see them alot. I love them I take care of them I'm a freaking good mom. This is no different than any other divorce with kids involved. and until you have been there can you say anything. I am marrying Phil. I'm way happy about that. You can't tell me who to love. You can't tell me what I'm "giving up." Don't you think that me being the one in the unhappy marriage would be the best person to decide if this is what I want or not? This is the last I will say on the matter. You're an idiot. Grow up. Butt out. I'm an adult I can make my own decisions. Anyone else who feels the need to say what everyone else is too scared to say can keep their mouths shut. Ever hear the saying if you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all. I ask you to do that. Let me enjoy this happy time for me and Phil. Stop ruining things for me.

BUTT OUT!

Alright.... Here I go again. All I have to say to this person that won't leave me alone is to butt out. I don't need you to tell me how to live my life or how to deal with MY kids. I know the effect this is having on them. But what effect did it have on them when their mom was always depressed and not happy. Please I'm begging you whoever you are to leave me alone. You are not my friend. You have no clue what is going on. You are looking at it from the outside. How can you sit there and judge me? You don't have a clue about anything leading up to what is going on. You talk about god and how can this be ok with him, but how can god be ok with you judging me? When you were not living in my house with me? This is my life. My decisions. My family. My kids! You know nothing about them. I love them so very much and so does Phil. You are not there to see them run to him, to see them call him their daddy. Abby is so excited to have 2 daddys. You are not there! They see that mommy is happy. The effect this has on them is nothing compared to what it would have been if I would have stayed in an unhappy marriage. You don't know Phil. Stop judging what you have no idea about! If this keeps up I will delete my blog and everyone will miss out on keeping up on me and MY girls. I don't know if anyone would miss it. At this point I don't know who my friends are. Obviously you are too chicken to tell me who you really are because you know that what you are doing and saying is wrong. You say that you are only saying what no one else dares say but hello obviously you don't dare say it because you have to use a fake name! All I ask is that you leave me alone. Leave my family alone. Stop telling me how to live my life. Maybe you should take a step back and look at your own life. Your not perfect either. We all make mistakes. Mine I would not change because I got my 2 beautiful girls out of it. But I'm moving on now. I'm happy. If you were a friend you would see that. You would care about that. So please come out from behind the curtain. Come tell me what everyone else is so afraid to tell me. But don't hide behind the internet. Tell me to my face. And i will tell you where to shove it!

People!

Alright well in answer to a comment made on my blog I would like to clear things up. First of all I am not still married the divorce was finalized over a month and a half ago. So maybe whoever you are should get the facts straight before posting a comment on someones blog. I have prayed about it, but that is non of your business. What I do is between me and the lord. I'm sorry you feel the need to butt in. I don't know who you are or if I even know you. but if I do please let me know because you are no friend of mine. This IS a happy time for me and Phil. and to be honest I don't give a rats what you or ANYONE else thinks. I'm happy. If you ask me that is what matters. So to sum it up I do feel comfortable being engaged because I AM DIVORCED! You can even clear that up with my ex if needs be. But from now on anyone that feels the need to post negative comments on my blog shouldn't be looking at it. Its for my FRIENDS and FAMILY to keep up on my life. And if you feel that way you are neither of those. Let me live my life and you live yours. Oh and in case you didn't get it I AM NOT STILL MARRIED!

Sunday, August 10, 2008


Abby loves to wear sunglasses. She walks around copying everything her aunt Heidi does.

Friday, August 8, 2008

I'm ENGAGED!

So Phil popped the question today! I'm so excited. We r thinking January. I know you all r thinking it's fast but Phil and I dated a while ago and we both have prayed about it. This is what I want. Hope you all can be happy for me because i am!