Wednesday, December 22, 2010

9 months!

We took Tristan to his 9 month check up yesterday. He weighs 16lbs 12oz and is 27 3/4 inches long. I'm pretty sure I messed up his height last check up because thats what I thought he was before. But anyway he is in the 3 percentile for his weight and 25-30 for his height. And guess what?!?! thats on the normal chart not preemie! :) We were shocked how tall he is and so was the doctor. But we will take it! He is long and skinny. Tristan has 4 teeth and he is fully crawling now. He LOVES his jumper and screams and squeels the whole time he is in it. He jumps so high sometimes I wonder if he is going to jump it right off the door frame. He is so wild. I can't imagine what he is going to be like when he starts walking. He doesn't hold still for ANYTHING! When I am holding him he is climbing or jumping all over me and changing his diaper is becoming quite the task. He says mama and dada but I am still not sure if he knows what they mean. He gives kisses and he gets so excited when he sees his bottle which kind of worries me. He wont take a binky anymore and is totally a bottle baby. We are so happy he is healthy and can't believe he is 9 months already!!!!!

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

A week from you know where

This past week has been one thing after another. Starting with exactly a week ago when I underwent my D&C, then on Friday Tristan had his choking scare. From there it went to Sunday morning when we woke up to our basement flooded with raw sewage. Then on Monday morning Phil woke with a horrible stomach flu that would put him flat in bed for 3 days, that was followed closely by my trip to the ER Monday night because of complications from my D&C. Then on Tuesday Joslynn started running a fever which is ecspecially not good because she goes in for her ear surgery on Monday. And finally we end exactly 1 week later with my second surgery when they found a huge blood clot that took up my entire uterus, followed by another round of that HORRIBLE drug that makes my uterus contract putting me in extreme pain for 3 days. But through this all I have to say that I am so thankful for wonderful Dr's and nurses and the wonderful medical technology that they have now, but most of all I am thankful for mine and Phils WONDERFUL AMAZING family that have stepped up and taken care of our kids through all of this. Heres hoping that this neverending nightmare ends soon.

Monday, November 22, 2010

A close call

Friday night I layed on the couch still recovering from my surgery. Tristan was happy scooting on the floor. I had just vacuumed so I wouldnt have to worry about him eating things off the floor. He scooted over to me by the couch and the next thing I knew he had his head tipped sideways and his chest was heaving. He wasnt making any noise but I knew right away he was choking. I jumped up and grabbed him so fast I gave him a carpet burn on the side of his face but he didn't cry out in pain. I stuck my finger in his mouth trying to feel whatever it was and sweep it out but there was nothing. By this time he was turning blue and I began to panick, but suddenly something else took over. I have not been trained in the hymlic since before I had Abby. (6 years ago) but I just started doing it. I flipped him on his tummy and started doing back compressions and then flipped him back to do front thrusts. I had no clue if I was doing it right but after 15-20 HORRIFYING second of doing it Tristan took a breath. I stuck my finger in his mouth frantickly and out came a penny. I took a breath I didn't know I was holding but my relief didn't last long because now Tristan was screaming. He was screaming like I had never heard him scream before and I was so worried I had done something wrong. I called 911 and moments later paramedics arrived. They checked Tristan out and suggested they take him by ambulance to primary childrens. They worried I had broke some ribs and were afraid if the break was bad enough that it would puncture his lung. So off we went. For the first 5 min they drove with the lights off and Tristan began to be his normal self pulling off his oxygen and trying to eat it. But suddenly he became very lathargic and went to sleep. They were unable to arrouse him. So on the lights went and the atmosphere changed from relaxed and joking to panicked. As we arrived at the hospital Tristans eyes flew open. I once again breathed a sigh of relief. The rest was very calm. After xrays it was determined that Tristan only had bruised ribs and was completely fine and just flat out pooped from the whole ordeal. We left hours later snuggleing our baby boy. I can not even put into words how grateful I am that my baby boy is still alive. The paremedics said that 9 times out of 10 they arrive to a very different scene on these kind of calls. They made it clear that had I not acted so quickly Tristan would have been gone in a matter of minutes. I am just SO thankful that whatever training I was able to recall suddenly popped into my head right at the right moment. There is no doubt in my mind that the holy ghost was guiding me and there is no doubt in my mind that without that guidance my baby boy would not be here today.

The stuffed animal the hospital gave Tristan

The penny that almost took my babys life.

8 months!

Weighs 16lbs 4oz fully clothed
Is 27 3/4 inches long
AND CAN.....







Thursday, November 18, 2010

A hard few weeks

I don't know what is making me post about this, I had decided a bit ago that I wanted as few as possible to know but for some reason I feel like I need to get this out. The beginning of September we found out that I was pregnant again. We of course were SHOCKED and scrambled to try and get our head around it. I struggled at first because we had just decided we were done having kids and I was excited to get my body back, but after a few days I found my knees and prayed. As I prayed I felt peace. A peace I have never felt before. And as I prayed a story played out in my head.

A Happy Little Family
Once upon a time there was a happy little family. There was a mommy, a daddy, a little girl named Abby, a little girl named Joslynn, and a baby boy named Tristan. The mommy and daddy of this family felt that their happy little family was complete. But they didn’t know that up in heaven a little spirit waited to join their happy family. As this spirit waited patiently the mommy and daddy decided that they didn’t want to have anymore kids. The little spirit was devastated. “What do we do?” She asked heavenly father. Heavenly father picked her up and hugged her. “I’m afraid there is only one thing we can do, we need to send you down to join the happy little family.” he said sitting her on his knee. “But they aren’t ready yet, Brother just barely went down” she said with tears in her eyes. “I’m afraid my little one that if we wait any longer it will be too late.” He said wiping her tears. So with that he hugged her one more time and sent her right down to the happy little family knowing that if he waited a second more it would be too late for the little spirit. Heavenly father watched as the mommy and daddy of the happy little family learned that they would be having another little spirit joining their family, and when it seemed too much for the mommy of the happy little family he sent the holy ghost to comfort her and help her understand what happened in heaven and why the little spirit was coming so soon. And so this happy little family of 5 was soon to be a happy little family of 6 as they eagerly awaited the arrival of the little spirit so lovingly sent by heavenly father.

I felt like everything was going to be ok and after sharing it with Phil we began to get very excited about this little spirit. But our second ultrasound at 11 weeks showed that the baby had no heart beat and was measuring smaller than that. I was given my options. Having been through this several times before I knew that I wanted to wait and miscarry on my own. but weeks later nothing had happened and I began to run a high fever. My doctor told me I had an infection and I couldn't wait any longer. He put me on a prescription that would make my uterus contract to help me along. It was the most painful and longest 3 days of my life, but after only 4 hours of light bleeding I still hadn't miscarried. So I was scheduled for a D&C. This would be my third and I was dreading it. Yesterday was a long day at the hospital but its finally done and I can feel like I can try and move on. Before they put me under my doctor was talking to me, he is just such a great man and he expressed how sorry he was that we were having to do this yet again. He looked at my chart and told me that this was my 11th pregnancy and he hoped and prayed that my next one would have a very different result. Even though I have been through this 8 times now I can't complain because out of those 11 pregnancies I have gotten 3 beautiful amazing kids and I count myself very lucky and blessed. This experience has been very hard and I have not quite come to understand everything yet but I feel strongly that when we are ready there is another little spirit waiting up there to join our happy little family and I can't wait to meet them.

One proud momma!

A few weeks ago I got to go to Abbys parent teacher conference. I had high hopes going in, Abby is a great kid and so smart. But the praise her teacher gave her had me beaming in my seat. I am so proud of this little girl! She is so sweet and dedicated and she has such a soft heart. To celebrate she wanted to go to Applebees with grandma and grandpa so we set a lunch date! I think she had alot of fun. Abby loves school and I can not wait to go to her next one and hear all the great things about her!

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Halloween fun

Halloween was a blast. The girls were with their dad this year but we got to go see their costumes. They were so cute! Joslynn was a witch and Abby was Alex Russo off Wizards of Waverly place. Tristan was Superman and I was supergirl and Phil was bat man.

We won these capes on our trip and couldn't resist a picture!

We have a daddys boy on our hands.

Everyday around 10:30 Tristan gets a little fussy. He is usually ALWAYS a happy boy but for some reason around this time he is not his usual happy hyper self. It seemed odd to me since he doesn't nap till about 1 so he isnt tired, he is fed and changed so thats not it, but I just c0uldn't put my finger on it so I decided to start paying attention to things. Phil usually gets home from work around 11:20, except Tuesdays when he has a meeting till noon. Well Usually as soon as Phil gets home Tristan is happy and excited and comes right out of his funk. So Tuesday rolled around and I watched the clock. I watched as 11:30 rolled around when he usually perks up, but he didn't. He whinned and fussed until Phil walked in the door around 12:20. And that is when it clicked. We have Tristan on a pretty good schedule, so he knows things and he can feel when it is time for his daddy to get home. One of the things that Phil and I discussed when we decided to have Tristan was my concerns. I was afraid that Tristan would become Phils #1. That when Phil walked in the door from work he would stop running to greet me and I would be replaced by this sweet little boy. I made sure that Phil knew just how much this worried me and he promised he would do his best not to let that happen. So now when Phil gets home he comes to me, he hugs me asks about my day kisses me and then turns to our little boy. Well on this particular day I watched as he did this, I watched Tristans excitment, his kicking legs and flying arms, his smile and squeels of joy as he impatiently awaited his daddys attention. And I watched as Phil picked him up and all Tristans excitment went away and turned into something else...I watched Tristan grab his daddys face and lean his forehead in and I realised that this was his way of hugging his daddy. I thought about all the other days, and realised he acted this way everytime his daddy came home. His excitment to see his daddy turned into a gesture of pure love and it almost brought tears to my eyes.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Big boy!

First cart ride!

Tristan is learning how to put his bottle in his mouth... This however was not working for him and he was getting quite frustrated.

Friday, October 1, 2010

My sweet girls

I feel like since Tristan is "hitting all the stages" ALL my posts are about him. So I wanted to post something about my sweet girls that keep me busy and laughing. I will start with Joslynn because those are the pictures that uploaded first and lets be honest I don't know how to fix it.
Jos is my little ray of sunshine. She is so sweet and has THE biggest heart. She is always thinking about others. She is constantly complimenting everyone. She makes sure you know how much you are loved everyday. She gives hugs and kisses out of the blue and always sticks up for Abby even if Abby is getting in trouble for something she did to Jos. She says the funniest things like when she tripped in the hall and I here a thud and then she calls "It ok! I alright" or when she opens the door to yell to the garbage man "Thank you come again!" She is the first to say thank you for everything you do for her or buy her. She has her moments but she is so precious and she melts my heart everyday. She is always sharing like when her dad brought them home from Abbys dance class and they had starbucks All night she kept asking me if I wanted a sip of hers. "I will share mommy, do you like ice cream? Here take a sip" I love this little girl so much and I feel that without her my world would have a dark cloud around it.

Now to my little Abby that is suddenly not so little anymore. I can't believe how much she has grown up. She is always helping me with everything. Cleaning, Tristan, Tristan, oh and did I metion Tristan? This girl is right there the second he makes a sound. "MOM!!!! Tristan is crying can I get him out of his swing?" Even if its a little wimper she is right there to tell me. She loves to carry him around and he actually loves it too. He is the first one she runs to when she comes back from her dads and the last one she kisses goodbye before she goes. She just adores him. One of my favorite things is picking her up from school. She talks my ear off all the way home telling me every detail about her day. It is so fun to see how much she loves school. She is a little monkey and can climb up anything. She likes to do her own hair and pick her own outfits. Sometimes there is a struggle over clothes. I can't wait till shes a teenager.... NOT! She is also very sweet and I often hear her telling Joslynn to let me sleep a little longer in the mornings. "Come on Jos lets go watch a show and let mommy sleep. She had a rough night." I can't count how many times I have come down to see them already eating breakfast and Abby telling me to go back to sleep. I can honestly say that she is one of my best friends and I love her so very much.

6 months!

Tristan turned 6 months on the 20th! He is getting so big and catching up to regular babies. At 6 months he....
Weighs 14lbs and almost 11oz
Is 25 1/2 in long
rolls over both ways
is talking 24/7!
Has 2 bottom teeth
Has started food and loves sweet potatoes but HATES carrots
loves playing with toys
loves to stand while you hold his hands
looks like he is swimming whenever he is on his tummy
slides on his back using his feet to get places
Tristan is one of the happiest babies I have ever seen. He hardly ever cries so when he does we know he has gas or something. He is always smiling and laughing. We think he has started giving kisses though who really knows maybe he is just trying to eat our cheek. His hair is blond and fuzzy and is growing straight up in the front. He looks like a fuz ball but a VERY cute fuz ball. :) We are so happy to have this little guy in our family. He is such a joy and the girls just adore him!

His teeth

Playing on his play mat (Thanks Mike and Manda for letting us borrow it!)

Check out the hair

He likes to roll over and take it with him. Then he gets very upset until I fix it and smiles and does it again. I think he thinks its a game.

My happy little boy!

Friday, September 10, 2010

Idaho trip

We went to see Phils sister in Idaho last weekend. It was fun and Tristan did GREAT!!! He was happy most of the car ride and I got some cute pics of the first day before my camera died. Of course right? Anyway here they are

Car ride

Swimming in the hotel pool with daddy

He looks like such a chunk in this picture!

He is just like his daddy and loves to look at himself in the mirror

Farmers market by Stacie and Jeffs house

Forgive me while I take a moment to pat myself on the back...

So I have been very discouraged lately because I am nowhere close to my goal weight or goal pants size. It seems to be all I think about lately and I have been busting my butt trying to lose weight but It seems to be coming off so slowly. Anyway today was a particularly bad day and I spent a good deal of the morning feeling sorry for myself when suddenly I realised that even though I am nowhere near where I want to be, at this very moment I weigh less than I have since before I had Abby. SO....even though I have a LONG way to go I think I can be proud of the fact that this is the closest I have been to where I want to be in over 5 years! Forgive me for bragging but this is kind of my way of trying to see things positively. Here's hoping this attitude sticks for more than one day! As I was searching for a before picture I found that I did a very good job of staying out of pictures (for good reason!!!) Anyway this is really the only one I have.
5 months ago....


Hopefully soon I will be posting one of me at my goal weight!!!

Abbys REAL first day of school

We survived! Abbys first day was very eventful. It started with a very excited little girl and then turned into me pulling a sobbing little girl off my leg and leaving her crying in her seat. That of course was followed closely by a tearful car ride home on my end. BUT we survived and Abby now LOVES school! I miss her when she is gone but it is so fun to hear about what she is learning.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Family Pictures

We took my camera today and did pictures with my family. The kids were all pretty cranky (except my nephew Josh who has to be THE best behaved kid in the world) and Tristan was SO tired he couldn't even hold his head up for the pictures. Hopefully we can take him again and get some better shots cause he really is a happy boy most of the time. Here they are!!